Humbled and Grateful

I am surprised at how good a group of friends I have.  Sometimes it feels very isolating when you spend a lot of time at home as a caregiver.  But it's really great to know that good friends will come into the cave with you and help you tackle the bear inside. Whatever the bear is at the time.  My "bears" are lack of reliable help with my Mom, an occasionally crazy and hectic schedule, the guilt that I feel from being away from home and keeping the household running.  My good friends have offered everything from staying with my Mom for a number of hours to grocery shopping for me to taking the kid to school for me when my schedule is crazy.  They are such a God send and I truly love them - not for what they do as much as just for who they are and what they stand for.  They say that birds of a feather flock together and in this case it's true because I would do anything for them as well.  It warms  my hardened, frozen heart to have such a loving and caring friends.

Momentum

The articles of incorporation came in last Monday and I have been setting up a few appointments to go along with my upcoming days off from the job that pays me a weekly check.  So, tomorrow I have 2 meetings.  One to pick the brain of an Executive Director of a non-profit and the other to start on my business plan.  Next, going to meet with some folks who are willing to be front line volunteers.  Then, off to pick the brain of another ED.  I am picking up speed.  I do need to keep it real and acknowledge that big highs can have potentially as big of a low.  I can't let those get me.  I need to keep making progress.  There's no room for "I can't do this."  I just have to stay on my game.  And make room for Mommy wherever and whenever I can.

Things Come Full Circle

As we come to the end of the Easter Season, I am reminded that all things will come full circle. It has been almost six months since I wrote a blog and I am just getting moving on the things that I spouted and touted that I would do for myself before the last set of holidays. But I have started at this point. 2 days in the gym, a little time to myself to reflect on all the good things in my life and I am on my way!

I send up prayers for my sisters who are hurting right now because of the loss of a job, home, the loss of a loved one, the loss of themselves or the loss of their self-respect. I am hoping that they will find their way through the dark back into the light. And remember that there are those around you who love you and want to help you and send you love and light.