Update

Wow!  I can't believe it's been so long since I used my Blogspot!  So many things have manifested in my life. There have been great losses and great gains.  Long and short of it - husband is gone (truly for the best).  I lost my oldest brother in 2009 and my Dad in 2011.  I lost 30 pounds between 2010 and today (7 more to go to reach my WW goal).  I still have my Mom with me.  And over the last 3 years, I have gained a ton of confidence, reassurance and happiness in me and with me.  My finances have made it to a place where I am almost debt free. My brand new car is paid for.  My time share is paid off.  All of my credit card debt is gone. And I just started doubling the house payments every month in order to pay off the house within the next 7 years.  GOD IS GOOD!!!!  HE IS GREAT!!  HE IS MINE!!

I got myself together enough to start a Caring for the Caregiver group at my company and we did one year of meetings.  And when it seemed that I was the only one working toward programs for the group, I had to put it down for a while. The last meeting was November of last year.  If there was some interest or demand from the members for more activities, I would continue. But I think the next manifestation of the organization will be out in the community.  It means more work, but very well worth helping others.

Other than that, there are the everyday struggles that are a part of life (as a Christian). What you want right now.  What you feel you deserve.  What you know you should be waiting for. And the preparation that you should be undergoing while you wait for what you want so that you are ready for it when it gets to you.  You know, the hard stuff.  The patient, obedient and faithful stuff.   The try and try and try again stuff.  A friend of mine told me that sometimes she feels like she parties and repents and parties and repents - constantly!  I'm not on that track (all the time).  But I can relate to what she was saying.  I am making changes for different outcomes. Watch me now!